It's starting to feel okay...

  Going back to work was VERY difficult at first.  Before Palmer, all I had to take care of in the morning was myself.  Shower, prep, drive to school. Done.  Learning the new balance - the new normal - took a bit of getting used to.  I still miss Palmer when I am away, but like I always said, knowing I had someone really good to care for him, really does make all the difference.  I wish I was with him, but knowing he is with Linda and Alice, and that he does so well there - or - when he is with Mimi or Big Papa and being with family who loves him, really does ease any worry that I have.  I think the other thing that is really making coming back to work bearable, is that so far, we had 3 full weeks and then Thanksgiving break.  Then we had three weeks before Christmas break (two down, one to go!!).  I cherish the moments I have with our family, and I am realizing that whether I am with Palmer all day, or with him in the afternoons, evenings, and weekends, he still knows that I am his momma.  He still knows that Ross is his main man.  My hands are fuller than ever, but so is my heart.